So a decision will need to be made soon in terms of work arrangement. Would I continue to stay at home and take care of bebis? Or would I return to work and get someone to take care of him? Should we take him to day care? Or should we hire a nanny (we know how "great" the last one worked out...)?
Apparently, taking a year break does not make the decision any easier. If anything, having more understanding (and still not coming to terms with his condition) makes it even harder. Would I ever trust anyone else to take care of my child? Knowing how picky I am...probably not. If we send him to day care, would he get the same amount of attention as he would 1:1? Probably not. Would someone be able to watch him like a hawk to make sure he would not scratch himself silly and make the eczema worse? (See...I have no hope of the condition improving in three months...and it doesn't take much to crack his skin and make it bleed)
But then if we continue to keep him at home, would he be able to develop the necessary social skills? I know mine suck; according to my mom, I refused to share any toys with anybody else when I was little...and I didn't particularly like interacting with anyone either. See, I developed an attitude way back when I was young. And I don't want bebis to be like me.
I know parenthood is not easy. And I know there are going to be many more obstacle courses that we would need to overcome in the years to come. I'd just tackle one at a time...I just don't know what to do with the one in front of me.
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